Still Alive

Ok, so it is so not like me to not blog for such a long time. (at least I feel like it has been FOREVER). I am totally going thru blog withdrawls haha. But alas, I have little time to do a good post, so this is basically to say we are still alive! => We have been busy yet not at the same time haha.
 I honestly can not even tell you all we have done because its mostly just stuff around our apartment (declutter, organize, clean), then I weened Paige, that was a joy and a half haha (definate sarcasm in there) probably more on that later, then my Mom came up and had "Sisters Weekend" with most of her sisters (me and my sis too) then she stayed with me for a few days, then craft day with my aunts, then Jared had surgery again (on his mouth still, hopefully this will be the last one!)..... and now we are in the "recovery/drug you up constantly" stage of the surgery.
Jared is drugged and on the bean sac watching Bourne, Paige is asleep after an exhausting day being babysat at someone elses house and being left more to her own devices while I take care of Jared. Thats a lot for a little baby to handle. With those two taken care of it has given me a few minutes to clean the house (a NEVER ENDING job) and blog a quick post just reassure everyone we are alive. haha =>

Today Is The Day!

Todays the day! Today I stop breastfeeding and go only bottle. Today I "ween".

This has been long coming. Breastfeeding has not been super natural or pleasant for me. I have loved being able to see Paige grow and know that it is because of me, and I love the  knowledge that I can give my baby life, but it aslo has been a real physical and mental challenge, more mental and less physical the longer I did it. Like everything in life there are pros and cons to breastfeeding. But alas, I have reached the end of my rope, and to the bottle I go! =>

I am actually really nervous for this. Paige does NOT take a bottle. The few times I have left for a period of time and she needed to be fed from a bottle she REFUSED! My little one would rather starve and wait for me than eat from a bottle. So begins the battle of wills. Mother vs Daughter. I will win, and she will eat from a bottle, the question is: how long will it take to break her? haha Lets hope a really really short while and this will go smoothly. I really hate to see Paige mad or upset.

But this must be done. And today is the day it will begin! To quote a song that I have been singing all day  (from Newsies)
 "Open the gates and sieze the day, don't be afraid and dont delay..... arise and sieze the day!!"

New Purpose

For the past two years my blog has been a journal. I have written many things about our little family and posted a gazillion pictures! And I LOVED it! Even in my younger journals I was always gluing pictures and random things in it, words only just never cut it for me. And at the end of every year (year from marriage date to marriage date) I have printed out my blog into a book, so it is like officially my journal, and I LOVE it even more! I love being able to sit and cuddle with Jared while we reminisce about our past adventures! That book (the second one is ordered and on its way) means more to me than I ever thought it would.

But, alas, as I grow older I get more.... i dont know, wanting better? haha I went from writing in paper journals to glue-ing and writing in paper journals, to blogging/journalling and printing out, and now is the time for the next step. Digi Scrapbooking! I am slightly obsessed with digital scrapbooking! I can still do the amount of journaling and writing I want, but I can make the pages SOOOOOOOOOO much more cute! And after all, life is all about cute. haha

So from now on that will be my journal. And sorry to say you all can not see it until it is printed, unless I download some pages on here to show off. => This is just a note to give a heads up of a new direction my blog is going. I will not be posting as much, but I will be posting for the sake of the grandparents => and to let people know we are still alive. haha And lets face it, I can never fully stop blogging because I am addicted. So here is to a blog more blog-like and less journally! Here here! =>


PS, I did go un private for a couple hours while ordering my blog book, as some of you might have noticed, but no worries, I will be going back private in no time =>